I told myself so many times before that I didn’t want to do a New Year’s recap on the blog, because honestly, they are a little played out….I’ve always been the kind of person to say, “forget the New Year, start right now!” and I am still a firm believer in that! But I can’t deny that this year of my life has been an extremely significant one that will set me up for the rest of my life. LITERALLY! So I wanted to take the time to reflect on the challenges and changes that 2018 has brought into my life and how grateful I am that it did just that.
The end of 2017 brought true hardship into our lives. After Jared’s father passed away, our whole world was turned upside down. We moved in with his mom to help adjust to the new ‘normal’ which brought the worst struggles of the year. We moved out of our desirable, downtown apartment full of light and activity, to a basement in a house where other people had routines and habits. It was so hard for us to get used to living in that situation. The more the days went on the harder it was for my happiness to be present. I felt like Jared and I’s relationship was constantly being tested with the changes and the emotional rollercoaster we were both riding front row seat on. I was starting to slack in my last year of college from the lack of motivation to study, and my plans of being a teacher seemed less enticing. This lasted for six months of us pushing through and trying to remind ourselves everyday that we had each other and that’s all we needed to be happy. And after living through something like that, I know for a fact that this is 100% true. Just before ringing in the new year for 2018, Jared proposed making my outlook for the year to come, better. We had both come to the conclusion way back that getting married out of college was what was meant for us. We wanted to start our lives together and create a little (big) family of our own. Something that I grew up with and something he now longs for. A house with lots of babies and maybe even a farm with goats and chickens?! It was all a dream for us and something we talked about constantly. It wasn’t until we were faced with loss and sorrow that it solidified our dreams of a future together and knew the future needed to become the present. We needed to let go of the judgement of others over marrying young and start living for ourselves. We needed to forget about societies ideas of things and start looking at what will make us happy. What will make us happy is being together, starting a family, facing every other tragedy that life throws at us, TOGETHER. As one. I mean, there’s a reason people are always saying, ‘life is too short.’ I’m just sad that it took something so awful to open our eyes to what God intended for us all along, and that’s to be together as husband and wife. Although I might have not seen it at the time, I am so grateful for the experience that taught me how precious life can truly be if you just choose to be happy. Once I chose to be happy, everything else fell into place. My wedding was planned, my diploma was delivered, our family grew by four more paws, and with each day brings one more reason to be thankful for this year of change. Don’t get me wrong, I’ll be the first to say the hardships didn’t stop there…we struggled with finding a place to call home, the pressure of society, failing over and over again, and every other day to day thing that could go wrong. But I handle them with a little bit more ease knowing I have followed the path laid out for me this past year. 2018 brought creativity and confidence within myself that I never knew existed. I started this blog to push myself to write more and to discovering all the things that brings me excitement. I also learned the hard lesson of realizing that not all your friends are on the same journey in life as you are, and we had to grow apart. But it also gave me friendships that have become stronger because of the same reason. I want to practice acceptance and less self inflicted anxiety with this coming year so I can learn to have a peace of mind. And most importantly I want to continue to strengthen my relationship with my husband because no matter how much you love someone, no one is perfect and a relationship takes work and dedication. It was never made to be easy. My wedding and graduation day are two of my favorites brought on by 2018 and I am so excited to see what is in store for us with the coming year. We currently have something very exciting we’re working towards that I will hopefully reveal very soon in the new year!
If you have stuck around long enough to reach the end of this little recap, then I very much appreciate you! I know everyone faces change and growth in their day-to-day lives, and I hope my story encourages you to let go of those opinions that hold you back from doing what makes you happy. I had to do that to truly allow my dreams to become reality! If I didn’t do that, then I probably would have never started this blog and put so much effort into a hobby that brings me joy with every word I write. So happy New Years to all my readers, and I wish you the best of luck in 2019! 🙂